Randomness on a Monday

So, it is a BEAUTIFUL Monday here in my little town. The sun is out, there is a wonderfully warm breeze and I do not want to do anything! UGH, does anyone else ever have one of those days? I am seriously lacking in the motivation department. My one year old is keeping himself occupied with toys at the moment. He is due for a nap very soon. I keep looking out the window thinking I should get up and go for a walk, or sit in the sun with a book, weed the garden, SOMETHING. All I feel like doing though is sitting down with my iced coffee, pinning recipes, or doing work inside the house. I guess I have SOME motivation, but its keeping me indoors doing things rather than taking advantage of this weather before it is gone and we are really stuck inside. I have been doing a lot of stuff in my home, still painting and moving things around. Yesterday I went through all of the clothing that no longer fits my son and separated it into sizes. Keeping things I love and can not get rid of, but selling or giving away the rest. There is SOOOO much. Maybe after his nap I can drag myself out of this funk and we can go play outside. It really would be a shame to waste such a nice day. I am sure there are many people stuck inside today that would love to be able to be out doors. I should remember I am fortunate that way. 

Another thing that I wanted to share was a bit personal. I may or may not have mentioned in previous posts that we had to use fertility to become pregnant with my son. Long story short, 10 years of birth control really messed up my system and I became super irregular after stopping. It prompted me to see a doctor who then informed me after a blood test that I was not producing enough FSH (follicle stimulating hormone) which meant my eggs (if any) were not big enough to become fertilized. How frustrating that was. I was only 27 when we started trying. I did not become pregnant until 29, after the 4th IUI attempt with a new shot introduced. ANYWAYS, I had wondered if maybe after going through the pregnancy if my body would straighten itself out. I was very discouraged and figured if we wanted more kids we could only conceive through fertility help. I still do not know if we would have to go that route. I hope not. My husband had to do his share in the doctors office too if you catch my drift. I feel like if we had to do that again he would be hesitant. I just want it to happen naturally.

So, I stopped breastfeeding my son at ten months. He was pretty much weening himself and I wasn't producing as much. Well a friend of mine has a  daughter who is three months behind my son, still breastfeeding her and had her cycle return about a month ago! Of course I was kinda bummed, I had finished breast feeding for two months and NO sign of a cycle for me. I made a doc appointment because I wanted to talk to him about thoughts on conceiving for a second time and what he could suggest. Should we wait, should we try? I also am not sure we want a second right NOW, but if we have to do fertility...you cannot just wing it. Well, to my surprise, guess what showed up the Thursday before my appointment? I know most women hate when it comes (and actually I'm no fan haha) but for me and what we went through, this was awesome!!! my body finally doing what it was supposed to do, and without medication to start it. It lasted a full week and was horrendous! But, I did go almost a year and a half without it. So (this can get a little TMI, in case you can't handle this stuff) I downloaded the OVIA app which is a fertility app that tracks periods, ovulation, fertile times etc. I figured I need to do this in order to see what my body is going to do. I could still be irregular, I do not know for sure if my period will come in 28 days or if it will be late. I do have to say this though, last week I was grocery shopping and all the sudden I am just standing there (TMI) and I can feel something going on down there. I went to the bathroom and checked and it was clearly cervical mucas. According to doctors and everything I have read, a good way to test if you are fertile is to check your CM. If it is stretchy then that is a good sign that you are. So I checked and sure enough...it stretched. I am sorry for all the info here, but for anyone trying to conceive or that has already gone through this, you get it. There is nothing that grosses me out about this kind of stuff anymore haha. 

My calendar as is appears today

I got really excited not because I think I will get pregnant or anything, but because the thought that maybe my body is getting back to where it is supposed to be is WONDERFUL!!! I do not know if it means my hormones will balance out and I will produce FSH like I should be, but one step at a time. So I marked it down on the app and have been keeping track of the times my hubs and I have sex. According to the app, if I have a normal 28 day cycle, my next period should start around the 28th. Praying for a period or a positive pregnancy test. None of the "un known" anymore!!!

Time to go put my little man down to bed. Maybe Ill head outside and tackle that garden...or maybe I'll just continue blowing up my friends pinterest feeds ;) tee hee hee

Enjoy the day!!